James Patrick Canares
CA, 626/818 bound
I don’t want to jinx it, but I think i’m finally ready.
Remember when I said I hated venting? Lolol I’m full of shit.
What am I doing? Seriously, what am I waiting for? Where am I going if I continue this way? Am I just addicted to pain and depression? Do I have a natural talent for self-sabotage?
I realize that the problem with myself is that I’m content with prolonged periods of pain just for a small taste of what I want. I choose the suffering path because I’m no stranger to suffering. If I hadn’t been built up all these years to endure the pain, I might have already killed myself a long time ago.
The only reason I’m still standing is because “I’m used to it.”
I hate asking for sympathy because sometimes I just wish I get it as easily as others do.
little known fact: league of legends is often abbreviated to LoL because it’s a fucking joke of a game